I felt nothing, like a vacuum,
Nothing, like Numb,
And I felt completely alone,
As if no one could hear me
As if I was essentially invisible,
As if my shoulder sink under,
The weight of this stress.
And my mind echoes the number,
Eyes heavy but wide open,
Thinking maybe I missed something,
My memories are spotted,
With days gone of laughing, until I cried,
Or crying until I laughed,
Laughter and tears are both,
Are the human reactions,
Testaments to our capacity for expression.
And I learned how to ” SMILE” after,
And the fear ebbed away,
My mind becomes calm and I feel safe,
Focusing energy on this smile,
So as not to waste it in pain.
If I makes u laugh, it’s usually un-propose.
If I makes u cry, I still think you are beautiful.